Because our life is so full with work, farm, ministry and everyday life, over this past year I have often prayed that God would make me like Daniel and like Joseph who were exceedingly capable and full of wisdom and integrity. Able to handle all the pressures and difficulties of life calmly and with great success. I pray this because I am often overwhelmed with all the things that I am responsible for and the long list of never ending things that need to be completed urgently.
Last night I once again woke in the middle of the night with my mind racing through all of the STUFF and worrying about everything. When it became apparent that I was not going to be able to go back to sleep, I got up and went out to read (as I often do) to take my mind off of all the STUFF.
I have been reading in Exodus and I began to pray “Lord, please make me like Moses who was able to manage an entire nation of people on the move. But then I thought, I am not Moses, or Daniel, or Joseph. But it is the same God that stood by them and now stands by me! I don’t need to be like them, I just need to be who God created me to be and to rely on Him to give me the grace and ability to do what He calls me to do.
So I prayed that He would give me the ability to stop trying to do everything under my own power and to trust that He will do the heavy lifting as I just obey.
“If it is true that you look favorably on me, let me know your ways so I may understand you more fully and continue to enjoy your favor. And remember that this nation is your very own people.””
Exodus 33:13 NLT